Perception

Prompt: perception

I tend to analyze situations from my father's point of view. He often tells me to help yourself first. I agee with his opinion, but at first, I would help others before I would help myself. I ended up with the smallest piece of the pie some times. However, now that I started putting my priorities first I have seen to be a little on the selfish side. This closes my eyes to a lot of help because sometimes it would benefit me more if I thought to help someone else.



I have a past and present baptist Christian background. In the past, God was just a parent that wanted everyone to be good. I did not think of punishment that much. But, as I got old enough to undertand, things about him became more complicated and narrow. I realized that everybody does not believe in my God. Also, certain moral issues such as homosexuality, adultery, and abortion, would hinder me from being associated with people. Christianity also leaves little room for grey areas. Having the choice of free will, I find it impossible for a person not to have a choice on the way he or she lives his or her lifestyle.

I also subconsciously hate the color blue; due to my adolescence childhood and associates I chill with, I prefer red, black, or brown. I try to curve my appetite for regression because I am to old for immature behavior. But, it is the people of other neighborhoods that still have not grown up.

I also have a problem with racism. I am not a racist, but I am skeptical about another man's mind when working with him or an oppurtunity comes up. Sometimes you can tell who is next in line for the promotion.

But I am most against speaking in public. For this reason, I will delay projects or I will pick a class that has the least to do with talking out in public. Thank God for powerpoint. I am totally turned off the the saying any person has the ability to learn new styles. It is not that I do not believe; it is that the self inflicted pressure I put on myself.